Legalize Trans*

I’m afraid to be a lesbian…

I can’t even commit to a relationship

let alone an entire sexual preference

I guess you can call me a coward

It’s just that I’m afraid to find out that the whole world doesn’t believe in UNITY

America doesn’t believe in you and me

him and he

she shouldn’t be with me because I can’t do anything the way a man can

that’s why Samuel cant make out with Joseph in the middle of the quad

he doesn’t want sideways glances that read how dare you make ME feel uncomfortable

I’m afraid of judgment

Don’t tell me you aren’t

We all are

Ever scan your surroundings?

Check if someone’s watching before you touch them

avoid group conversations about relationships

because your stories aren’t exactly on the same side of the fence

My grandmother called me from California

and asked if my hair was me trying to make some kind of statement

Just checking to see if the disgusting viral infection spread to my fingertips

hoping I hadn’t gotten infected with the idea that I should ever want to touch a female

I told her no

I didn’t want to have to slap an open mind across her face

Drill my right to be happy into her temple

scream into her ears until acceptance bled out and seeped into the pores of the face

that squints up at the sight of my younger cousin’s switch of his hips

My mother thinks it’s a phase

My father says as long as you’re happy

But do us a favor

and let’s just not talk about it

Shhhhhhh

No rainbow parties

don’t tell your little brother

wouldn’t want it to rub off

now would we

I used to try not to look like I was gay

Afraid of the word dyke

didn’t want to look like a stud

didn’t like discrimination

didn’t want to be kicked out of my circle of high school friends that no longer matter

Remember Downelink

The lgbtqia social website you never admitted you used

some random website full of people you’ll never meet

but it was the only place you could post your preference on without the fear of questions

Just hope no one you know finds you

cross your fingers that a stranger doesn’t call you out latter in front of your straight friends

It’s complicated

the facebook status I put because I can never put her name

The news feed would bring constant arguments that I’m just not ready to take part in

I just don’t need that kind of attention

safe space

don’t worry this is a safe place and we won’t judge you

just look at you a little differently

homo

queer

dyke

fag

fairy

fruitcake

carpet muncher

lesbo

abomination

how do you think hell is going to feel?

what makes you think a sticker of a rainbow on an upside down triangle is supposed to make me feel accepted?